I wrote the following piece on Good Friday 2012. Like countless other things I’ve written over the years, it was scrawled out on a tiny piece of scratch paper and buried in a box never to see the light of day! Until now.
One of the things I always treasured about my upbringing in the Lutheran Church was the Lenten Season. I really did take it seriously even as a wee youngster. I participated fully in several church services, especially during Holy Week. First the Maundy Thursday Service which commemorated Jesus in the Garden of Gethsemane as he contemplated what was about to happen and prayed to His Father that “this cup would pass from him (Matthew 26:39)” And then, a candlelight Good Friday Service where the seven sayings of Jesus were read aloud by the pastor, followed by extinguishing each candle until finally every light was snuffed out. This was a dramatic moment of silence to signify that Jesus had in fact actually died. Following the service we were all ushered out in silence. I took this so seriously that, if anyone dared whisper on the way out, I was sure to give them the evil eye (in the nicest way I could). And then, the vigil…waiting for Easter. I always wondered what that must have been like for Jesus’ followers, after his death and burial. Their whole lives had become about following him and now he was dead and buried in the ground. For they did not yet know what was really going to happen. Without further ado, here is the piece. I hope you enjoy it on this night before Easter.
“What now, Oh Lord? What Now?”
Must have been the disciples’ cry
After all their dreams had died.
Hopes shattered, trust broken, or so it seemed.
“Nothing left for us,” they cried
The day that Jesus died.
This man they followed, giving up their lives,
Believing he was Israel’s special son.
“Now it’s all over,” they cried, “it’s done!”
They must have thought, “our beliefs were for naught…
We’ve been played for fools, all…
Where will we go? On whom will we call?”
With all of their sadness and hopeless hearts’ plea,
They dispersed and ran off their separate ways,
The day after Good Friday.
If you’ve ever felt this way:
Broken, lost, betrayed,
With no more hope to find,
Then we’re all the same in many ways.
Or maybe you’re in a fog waiting for light,
what’s to be your next move?
which way is right?
If you’re like me you want to jump to the ending,
and see how those things all turn out, the ones pending…
You see one door closed, a dream’s door slammed shut.
And you wait with great hope to get out of this rut.
Still, we know, there can be no resurrection without first, a death.
And quiet. And wondering. And waiting.
So we wait together, longing….for our own Easter Sunday.
Don’t rush to an ending just be in the silence
and go on this journey with Him.