What do you do, when someone you know is feeling the weight of the world?
She’s a middle-aged woman, at a crossroad, her mind: In
a spiraling, downward swirl?
She has a good life, husband, house, child…to start,
but what she so misses she thought would be here,
and it leaves an ache in her heart.
Two times she lost out on what might have been,
yet another problem, a delay comes along.
Her strength, her resolve’s growing thin.
Not again! Don’t do this to her, don’t make it end like this!
She wants another child, that’s all.
Is this so wrong, to wish?
If it’s not God’s will, in time she’ll understand.
But the years have dragged on and she just wants to know,
What should she do, disrupt it? Move on? What’s His plan?
What would you do, about this woman, about this beggar’s plea?
If you would be so inclined, dear reader, just pray-
For this pleading beggar is me!
Here today is my honest prayer: Gracious God, you owe me nothing. You have already blessed me immeasurably. You know my heart’s desire for another child, and we took this road to pursue another adoption because we thought that was what you wanted for us. If we read that wrong, then close every door. But if it is in your will for our lives, please dear Lord, would you bring this to a positive end, soon? I had thought, honestly, there was a little girl that we were supposed to parent. A sister for my boy. I wonder, was I wrong? Did we mess it up? When it drags on, I have days where I think I can’t do this any longer…I’m too old, our family is set-just the three of us, I should give it up and move on. But then, for some reason, I find myself still holding on to this dream even when it makes no sense in some ways. And I find myself coming to you in the middle of the night, down on my knees begging that you would grant us this miracle. I know you have the power to make this happen. I come to your throne, boldly, as you have invited us to do, to ask you specifically. Lord, will you give us a daughter to adopt? if it is not too late, will you help me hang in there just a little bit longer? It is so hard to live in limbo. Yet I know I am not alone, and will never be. You are always with me, no matter what. Dear God, thank you for hearing my plea. I will follow you all the days of my life, no matter what. I love you, Lord. Amen.
For you, whomever you may be, I pray, also that YOU may feel the freedom to unburden your heart and spirit “To Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us (Ephesians 3:20).”
“Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need (Hebrews 4:16).”